Agoraphobia Bites

I started to feel like
something was pushing me
down into the ground and I just freaked out.

So I grabbed the bairns and
said we’ve got to go home.
I felt like everything was just closing

in on me I thought I
was dying. I heard the
bairns in the garden playing in the snow

and I got angry with myself
and I thought I’m missing out on them.
So I slowly sidled

to the edge of the bed,
crawled on my hands and knees to the window
and looked out all wide-eyed.

One of the bairns looked up
and waved and said ‘there’s mam’ I said ‘hi son’
and shot back into bed.